I live in a world that is not mine

"I remember a time, I'll tell ya, I was about... I was little.
I don't know, four, five years old, somethin' like that.
We had this old dog that had a litter of puppies.
And I walked in the bathroom and my mother was standin' there...
kneelin' down.
The dog had a litter about eight and my mother was bendin' over and she was killin' each one of its little puppies in the bathtub.
And I remember I said, why?
She said, I'm just killin' what I can't take care of.
Then my mamma said to me, she looked at me and she said...
I wish I could do that to you.
Maybe she... maybe she should have."

The Cook, played by Mickey Rourke, on Spun, a film I highly recommend you have the will to appreciate it